Thursday, November 12, 2015

life and its complicacies

So this was life assumed to shape itself.. To be frank, I always tried my hard to understand what it needs from me, but each time I failed.. And the biggest support of my life is shaking from its bottom.. Why it happens that what we expect is not worth expecting for others? Why is it like that what we express, is virtuality for others,  but what they say is practicality? Just because our views do not go hand in hand with  others, do that means we r always wrong just because conclusion is inferred by those who matters for us than any thing in our life.. I know we can't share the same views with every one and nor do we make people expect what we expect but do that make our expectations vulnerable enough to be ruled out.. And when the point comes when you have choose between your area of thoughts and next persons life area in our life, the ball has go in that court.. This is what life made me learn till now.. I am not saying I am always right.. In fact if taken into consideration general perception, I guess it would come out that I am 90 % time below practicality but that doesn't mean I am not fair with things.. May be that kind of thoughts lead to new kind of school.. I am stubborn.. In my views yes I am.. Compromises is my cupof tea only when served with kind of snacks I find worth eating.. Balance is what I always find the nearest way to deal with situation..  But if it will shift, my inertia will definitely come into action.. Law of science.. Can't help it.. If I respect ur ways of life, mind that I respect mine even more.. It's just that I let u lead urs.. So should u..

One more of reason..

Ae kash ki aisa hota..
Raat ka andhera tham sa jata..
Wo aane wale pal ruk se jate..
Kuch awaazein hum sun hi na paatein..
Beete kal ki aahato mai itna darr hai bassa..
Ki aane wale pal se ab umeed ki nhi gunjaish..
Thokre itni milli chalti raaho main..
Ki manzilo se an na rahi koi kashish..

Life is a struggle.. My friend used to say this to me always when I used to get low.. But sometimes this struggle goes to that level that no matter what's gonna be end result, u just hate the path.. I used to love life for its variencies, its complicacies.. The path was difficult always but it was fel worth moving.. But now the stage has reached when everything is so meaningless.. I never felt so worthless.. I was kinda gal which hugged the way no matter what it lays on it coz I used to love the destination.. But the way path has put forward its negativies, I lost my all love in it.. I want to get up, move forward, and go on.. I need that one more reason to love the way I used to.. And that one reason and method is I guess ignorance and that's it..
 Believe me guys, its never gonna be easy, and for a Indian girl it would never be.. To go on, to not let ur threshold of tolerance break is the key.. For me, each time it breaks, I push the limits a bit of up, and then try to move.. But its never easy.. The painn is sometimes unbearable.. But then easy way never lead to precious world..ihopemy way gets me to the world of selflessness, tolerance and acceptance.. After all life is also about change..