They cànt take u to be so simple and straight..

Boys... Sorry if I am generalising here, I beg ur pardon in advance but what I'm gonna write is based on what I have experienced.. The ego of boys is so big in them that they can't even take the slightest blow to that.. They talk of equàl thoughts, being straight forward and independent thoughts and personality but when it come to actually accept all these they take it so personally.. Seems like someone had done a surprise attack on their ego and they retaliate that too in a harsh way.. They don't understand that it hurts.. I was never able to understand there so called thought process.. How they come to an unusual conclusion is beyond my analysing abilities.. Might be I am poor in that.. But I am worse in facing those results.. If it would have possible to eraß ßome ingredients from your personality, I would have gone for the touchyness I start feeling with people when I meet them.. People always say they never let go whom they like, but I also believed in letting them know that they are not supposed to go.. I guess in today's world of materialism this is not what people deserve to know ( in people I am also included).. I guess its better to hide the truth and display the fake character they need us to play.. Guys do change.. If u are accepted for what u are, have courage to accept others for what they are.. Change is rule of life but not required foundation. It must just shape  the design but not decide the course of it... U won't understand ever but it hurts.. 

marriages are said to made in heaven but tolerated on earth.

I never assumed life to be so more life taking then it is now.. I was a joyous person with easy to go attitude but the type of situation time offered had taken all of my essence for life.. I never assumed for life to be all flowers and no thorns but it has its own basket to give from.. Being a girl in the Indian society never give u much space for thinking for all flower and I never did.. But yes assumed it to be simple.. The kind of situation I am going through now a days let my belief grew more stronger that the institutions created by man are the worst invention of all time.. Be it society, Marriages or anyyhing else.. They were made for the good of so called patriarchal world.. Where man always wanted to be dominating.. Where rules can be moulded açcording to his choice, how he can play safe... Where individual words were not given much space if they come from an ordinary man ohhh sorry ordinary women.. They were supposed to be a listening piece of their order decree.. And whenever attempts were made to break the rules of the game, they were disqualified.. I was never able to find the reason behind our submission.. We were also made to fly and we were stopped every time.. And the so called institution "Marriage" which was in the name of safety of our rights was made most useful and usable place to exploit us... To tolerate was made its main key to keep going but it was assumed to be kept by us.. The way marriages take place here is something very weird to my understanding.. A stranger suddenly becomes the master of your life.. We are bought up with the words that do what he say.. Are we made for so?? I know we are not always right.. I know relationship sustain with understanding and compromises but from both the sides... Bad understanding results in worst marriage and it has impact on not only two persons but on two families.. I know God has made us much clever and brainy than others.. But he made us emotional too.. We can solve any problem if we wish for it..  And we can wordsen any matter if we decide for it..  I, on this platform, just want to share that happiness is nevr readymade it is always earned with hard efforts for love and feelings.. Don't put its stake in danger with few unreasonable choice because of so called society pressure.. If we have happiness we will share it.. But we must aim for it with reason and choices . 

life and its complicacies

So this was life assumed to shape itself.. To be frank, I always tried my hard to understand what it needs from me, but each time I failed.. And the biggest support of my life is shaking from its bottom.. Why it happens that what we expect is not worth expecting for others? Why is it like that what we express, is virtuality for others,  but what they say is practicality? Just because our views do not go hand in hand with  others, do that means we r always wrong just because conclusion is inferred by those who matters for us than any thing in our life.. I know we can't share the same views with every one and nor do we make people expect what we expect but do that make our expectations vulnerable enough to be ruled out.. And when the point comes when you have choose between your area of thoughts and next persons life area in our life, the ball has go in that court.. This is what life made me learn till now.. I am not saying I am always right.. In fact if taken into consideration general perception, I guess it would come out that I am 90 % time below practicality but that doesn't mean I am not fair with things.. May be that kind of thoughts lead to new kind of school.. I am stubborn.. In my views yes I am.. Compromises is my cupof tea only when served with kind of snacks I find worth eating.. Balance is what I always find the nearest way to deal with situation..  But if it will shift, my inertia will definitely come into action.. Law of science.. Can't help it.. If I respect ur ways of life, mind that I respect mine even more.. It's just that I let u lead urs.. So should u..

One more of reason..

Ae kash ki aisa hota..
Raat ka andhera jald dhal sa jata..

Wo aane wale pal kuch der ruk jate..
Kuch awaazein hum sun hi na paatein..

Beete kal ki aahato mai itna darr hai bassa..
Ki aane wale pal ki umeed ne bhi sehma hai diya..

Thokre itni milli chalti raaho main..
Ki manzilo se ab hai nhi koi kashish..

Life is a struggle.. My friend used to say this to me always when I used to get low.. But sometimes this struggle goes to that level that no matter what's gonna be end result, u just hate the path.. I used to love life for its variencies, its complicacies.. The path was difficult always but it was fel worth moving.. But now the stage has reached when everything is so meaningless.. I never felt so worthless.. I was kinda gal which hugged the way no matter what it lays on it coz I used to love the destination.. But the way path has put forward its negativies, I lost my all love in it.. I want to get up, move forward, and go on.. I need that one more reason to love the way I used to.. And that one reason and method is I guess ignorance and that's it..
 Believe me guys, its never gonna be easy, and for a Indian girl it would never be.. To go on, to not let ur threshold of tolerance break is the key.. For me, each time it breaks, I push the limits a bit of up, and then try to move.. But its never easy.. The painn is sometimes unbearable.. But then easy way never lead to precious world..ihopemy way gets me to the world of selflessness, tolerance and acceptance.. After all life is also about change..

Back with a bang

Hey.. So I'm here again after a long.. The life has been so busy through out.. But the mind never stopped thinking of writing , of sharing , of telling the world what it think of it , and the worldly feeling , that keep on jumbling from here and there.. People say experience is the best teacher one can have in his life.. So true are they.. But more than experience what makes people more mature and knowledgeable is the understanding of the true meaning hidden in those experience s.. When I see myself in the past and what I am today, I can see a great amount of difference in me. Ya I was immature enough to make things complicated, not only for me but for others also.. Butnas I moved on, life presented before a lot of variety of situations to deal with, that too in variety of fields.. I was entering a love door, I was leaving the same door at the same time.. Ya true.. I was on the edge of success and took other aspects of life.. What I was demanding fro m it was not what it has in its pocket.. I was childish enough to assume that everything will go on like this.. But then a angel came in my life.. He was not of much importance earlier but today he is one of the most important person I have.. He was more than a friend.. He was a guide to me.. At any turn, if I shattered or got confused about the right way, he was there to help me out.. He made me laugh, he made me cry. He made me learn the toughest lessons of my life.. He let me learn the pain in such a beautiful way that today I can stand anything or any moment no matter I am alone or accompanied by someone.. Earlier I just used to consider him as my friend but now he is much more than that. He is the true mentor,a great ideal as a child to me, a rock of determination, a river with flexible path but never changing its path and destination.. People say love is the most ptous feeling we people can have.. But believe me when love is overpowered by respect and deep belief for each other, this feeling called love seems so small.. I respect my angel like God and my parents. He let me knew the true essence of true happiness.. He is different in many way possiblble but the way he care for others, combines extremism of both ends and yet following moderation is yet any uncovered magic he holds which I need to discover.. They say life changes when it assumes the set time.. But it can never change the way I feel for any1.. Respect has very earlier had overtaken the bus of luv. And now he is on driving seat, combining some beautiful example of truthiness and simplicity and yet so elegant in its own special way.. 

A TALK WITH BEST FRIEND...

Friends.. They are your words that speak, your words meant to be heard, your image reflecting in different ways..  Talking with them never let you see the watch.. Those discussions starting from any trifle point proceeds in such a way that it takes an extraordinary turn to hot debates. You become so yourself while discussions that words refuses to break the flow.. You put yourself exactly what you are without fearing of the fact that what kind of image those words are gonna make of you in your audience's mind.. your audience is so much intimate with you that your thoughts are not gonna make any difference in the relationship you share with them.. I too own such an audience.. They reflect me to me.. I fight with them.. I demand from them.. I go away from them.. I want to be near them always.. I may not talk with them when i don't feel like.. i call them in late hours too when i feel like.. we know we are their in each other's heart and mind even if we are on no talking terms due to some silly fight.. i know every friend feels the same.. Talking of topics which we shared while driving are some of differences we had in views over how to deal with different situations in life.. he had the concept of making situations adjustable with the circumstances.. i had the argument that those dreams adjusted with any sort of situation does not yield the satisfaction which would make us feel all happy about it.. the adjustment would always give us the pain of goals which we could have achieved.. he said instead of crying for uncompleted dreams and situations which cannot be either dealt and passed off, we must act accordingly. that will make all satisfied and happy.. he was correct if viewed with the glass of practicality.. but if the person is of the kind I am, i surely knows nothing but the originality can alone satisfy and douse my thirst.. then discussion took the turn to idea of friendship.. although I don't know how we moved there.. i put forward the idea of complete transparency in it.. sharing instantly what we have in our minds.. he had the added factor of delay in it.. awkwardness must be avoided that's what he said.. I said the kind of friends i make, awkwardness cannot even exist anywhere around.. the level of trust, understanding and togetherness make you feel one.. delay can produce spots on the surface of relationship.. and number of repetition can make them penetrate deep in the core which can be dangerous.. at that the only thing that can help maintaining the relation is depth of love.. what is more important either the person or the stain?? We both agreed on the level of understanding that exists any relationship but with different definitions.. he believed in post situation understanding while i believed in pre-situation understanding.. we share a lot of things from our careers, dreams, jokes, ambitions, pain to the family..we are not together just by word friend but very much more than it.. and i am afraid rather have fear that very soon its gonna have a setback.. not because of any differences but because of other relations.. i just wanna express that my friend will always be there in my thoughts and my heart no matter i communicate or not.. the special place would always be his... 

MY CHOICE..

What comes in your mind at first when you listen the word "choice"?? it can be 6 letter word for many of you but come here, I can help you meet a lot of people for whom this little word means a lot.. For most of us, this word might have taken its way to aloofness as for us to do what we want to is more of regular thing rather than anything special thing to celebrate.. but there are a lot of people for whom to make a choice is not at all in choices to be chosen.. think of a situation when you need to select for your undergraduate subject.. for lot of people, thinking of having an under-graduation degree is not at all in their choice-list.. I everyday see lots of faces which look at the students going for studies with temptation in their eyes and helplessness on their faces.. do they choose to have that helplessness?? do they enjoy that temptation?? no.. they scream-out loud deep in their heart.. but they don't have any choice.. For us, getting the degrees is part of our journey which has to be followed.. but for them its somewhere else apart from the road, cut-offed from their journey route.. they have to dig their own way to it.. and its not about just schooling.. its about every small wish.. whether to eat of their choice, wear what they want, doing things of their choices.. they are helpless by destiny but we are indifferent by choice.. Today, in the era of empowerment-talks (it is the most hot topic of discussion in media and privileged people), I just want to put forward some queries of my mind.. we talk about women empowerment the most.. but why is it only focused around dresses, sex and late night parties.. No doubt we must have choices in those also.. but their are girls, who still struggle for their way out of home for their basic needs.. and I want include decision-making, freedom of expression in words (write or say) and future plans in their basic necessities.. for them denial of dresses or late night parties is not at all the issue but to let not their soul feel contented surely is.. lack of contentment has disastrous effect on any human being.. and it much more dangerous when it is denied to you without giving chances.. also can you answer yourself,. lets talk about marriage.. here choices can take a negative turn.. because understanding in positive sense can make way for a happy and settled life, not just for but for your near and dear ones.. I'm not supporting for compromising on dreams, I just wish for collective decision rather than single on its timing.. understanding must not be confused with giving up.. you have your thoughts and ideas, and they are unique to you, but when you associates yourself with some person for life, the implementation of those ides must be done in a careful way which can be defended if needed.. your choices must not make some else suffer.. CHOICES must be selfish when needed but their destination must be selfless.. their results must encompass those who are deprived of it.. It must create a self-creating chain.. I guess only then can my choice is on its right way..

May be being alone is my destiny for today

but believe me bringing you closer is my destination for tomorrow..

may be i am standing single at this moment

but believe me i will bring you near me in my row..

may be Choices have to selfish in execution..

but believe me they will make wider the ways which were narrow..

RICHNESS OF THOUGHTS..

Lets begin with a small discussion toady.. There was a girl.. What's her name was is not important.. What's important is how she saw the world.. for her world was not a beautiful or an ideal place to live in but certainly it was an interesting place worth experiencing.. she thought of it in her unique way.. she loved to live in it.. no doubt she has pain, at times she felt hurt, at times she was disappointed with the way life was treating her.. but all these fact never broke her confidence in live being worth living.. she has her fundamentals and way of look towards life.. she believed that every human has capabilities to make this world a better place to live in.. what is needed are sincere efforts and to think above himself.. a fundamental equation says that what you cannot consider right or acceptable for yourself, you have no right to implement same to others.. if you need respect for yourself, you have to first give that to everyone.. in this balanced world, you cannot shift balance in your benefit at the cost of others.. and if you are blessed with some talents, you have to be thankful and share your talents with other so that other too can enjoy the benefits.. it might reflect socialist values but being purely capitalist cannot make anyone feel contented.. balance is a fundamental requirement.. but all her views got shattered when she saw how people were inhumane and irresponsible for some very basic values.. she used to thought that these are some basic ideas that are always there in the heart of people but when she saw the stupid responses and  selfish behavior of them she felt heart-broken.. her simple question was ," when she can feel the trauma and sense seriousness of the situation, why can't others? she is also a normal human being with average understanding, then why cant others??" and when i listened to her thoughts, the same questions arises in my mind. i know everyone has his build her thoughts in a different and peculiar way but some basic situation has same results.. they must not be denied.. and i feel ashamed when people act in the very opposite way in those basic situation.. especially being a woman.. i feel like God has given us very good understanding,intuitive and reasoning power.. What we can make of a situation, no one else can.. We can be the best administrators if we can put our 100% effort.. but at the same time we can the do the very opposite if we react in a stupid way and act in spontaneity and without giving any second thoughts.. we are made to rule but in a sensible way.. the world belongs to us and we must make it worth appreciating.. We must keep our shoulders high to go on and on but in a subtle manner.. our little effort in evry sector can collectively lead to great positive change.. I wanna make myself proud and i will, will you?? 

SELF-CHOICES V/S RESPONSIBLE DECISIONS..

It is rather very difficult to take decision at any point of time in your life.. Whats's right?? What's wished?? What's required?? What is the need of the hour?? A lot and lot goes inside out in mind and heart while thinking bout situations which are rather complicated.. Many a times, I think, that things are not as complicated as we take them.. they can be dealt with in a more simplistic way or I should say in a easier way at-least if little of emotions and practicality is added in those.. i wont say that whenever any complicity occur in any relation, the fault is either on-sided or two-sided.. i disagree with the proverb " you cannot clap without using two hand".. In relations or in any other situation, it can happen.. because some are the situations which are not governed by laws of nature or laws of requirement.. they are rather governed by laws of egoism or attitude or rigidness.. at that time there is a clap which has no sound associated with it but a boiled lava coming up slowly inside the volcano which cannot be seen from outside until it's exploded.. but is there any way employing which can this explosion be avoided or at-least kept at reasonable distance from important sites.. I would answer this in affirmation.. but this affirmative answer needs a tough stand and strong affiliation in its backdrop.. being good doesn't mean being silent.. its nowhere in the scene.. Goodness comes with lots of responsibilities.. In the present society, its very difficult to decide between right and wrong except in any hard core situation.. things are more relative and less absolute.. being responsible means to decide a balanced way out in every circumstances.. responsibility demands selflessness.. and its too difficult to be so.. compromises are much difficult to be made than promises.. at the starting, we can make a lot of promises but as time goes on, those promises demands compromises from us which means to set back self made choices.. and believe me that's a very tough task to deal with.. my personal criteria to deal with any situation is always based on the assumption of what i would have liked if i would have been in another person's place.. i know it never works always but this atleast it has an assurance with it of low pain intensities to others.. being stubborn is nice but being flexible is much better.. till it never want compromises on your basic principles.. I know we all have our right to enjoy this life given to us and have freedom of choices and decision but with rights comes the responsibility.. we should do what we want while taking care of others.. compromising on small things is not a bad deal for achieving great targets.. make yourself so lovable and respectable that people tends to give you what you want.. for our life, we must fight and work hard to make it worth living and remembering..

THEY SAID, I ASKED...

She said: i wanna have a sense of freedom and self-sufficiency..

they said: u are made to remain bounded and dependent by the supreme law..

She said: the world belongs to me and i belong to it.. 

they said: It never was and never will..

She said: look, the stars!! they are made for me also.. I can fly high and reach them.

they said: u are allowed to just see them and not to reach them..

She said: oh so humble one!! answer my last question..are u delivering the supreme law or u are just like others who are afraid to come below or at least equal to any other community than yours and using law as shield??

they said: lets leave.. we said what was told to us.. we are done..

they said, they left..

people never thought of the effects the words they say have on others.. they say and goes away.. and people need to suffer because of them.. and that suffering goes on a long way.. the right to live suffers the most.. the right to think intimate the most.. and above all our existence get into trouble the most... its time to get answer of all the questions we have in our mind, all the boundaries drown around us need to be justified, their right to question us in every circumstance need to be scrutinized.. we made us what we are and we dont need to give any explanation to any one who are not even anywhere related to us.. we did the action and let us be bearer of action and not the bearer to restraints to avoid the course of ideas and action.. we could be wrong but that doesn't make us less recognized or for biddable to implemenation.. 

SOLITUDE: DEFINING ITSELF

The Story started with Adam and Eve as it is said... see the world population today.. we have come along along way.. in this journey we interacted, with nature, with people who were like us, with animals and lot more.. I guess its naturally induced formula of getting engaged with those who are around us.. But do this always necessary?? Do this always required or permissible? we have a lot of feelings associated with us... love, hatred, jealousy, respect, being ignorant, being cautious and a lot more.. sometimes these may overcome us because of the genuineness of the reason behind them.. I'm not saying that those reasons are always right.. Theory of relativity rules everywhere.. All the things (including feeling and other emotions felt) make their way to right or wrong depending upon the perspective in which they are seen.. but ultimately what happens is that they can rule over our mind and heart sometimes.. that is actually the time for introspection.. leaving ourselves out of this world is what can help in such situations.. Solitude can define us.. when we are away from those reasons which spark those feeling in us and also from rest of the world, we actually can have time for us.. We can actually make way for our thoughts and future roads.. no one can care for us better than us.. 

mere shaam-o-sehar mai tera saayaan bahut hai..

dil ki aarzoon mai khud ko tera paaya bahut hai..

dil-e-nadaan pyar mai magroor-e masroof hai..

ki khud ko haqiqat se mehroom arkhwaya bahut hai..

ae bekhabar massom sun jara (di-e-nadaan)..

wo jod chuka hai khud ko kisi aur hi ki kashti se..

ki tere kinaro ka uske sahilo se faasla bahut hai..

keh uss maazzi se jo kheeche hai teri kashtiyoon ko..

le jae unhe meri leharo ke daayro se kahi door..

teri doori mujhe dard degi har hadd tak ..

par teri nazdikiyoon ne bhi mujhe tadpaaya bahut hai..

understanding loneliness... Distributing pain over a span of time.. laws of physics always helps a lot.. its better to be awya from all sometimes.. 

Practicality or Emotionalism??

Who is a good leader?? One who can understand the practicality of the situation and adapt accordingly or the other who can see emotional side of the situation, listen to his heart  and give results accordingly?? Being an reader, I read about lot of different articles about ideas that successfully laid the path for rule, hundreds of past leaders who dominated the world (not only individuals but collective people or a whole nation too), thousands of common who got affected and reacted differently but i was never able to find balance.. between need of the time and need of the people as a whole... Any particular situation bring forth different requirements for different people and communities.. the reaction which can be beneficial for a group of people can be disastrous to some other.. History is full of these kind of examples.. When because of few individuals (it starts with few and expands its base by including others of same nature in it), a large has suffered.. and they suffered not because they didn't have any choice, the suffered because they were made to believe that this is what their fate decided for them.. Good or Bad, justified or unjustified, essential or burden; no matter what they think of it, they have to bear it because they lack power to overcome it.. I always understood that the individuals who controlled the fate of thousands were those who had economical and political high-ends, but i can never understood why the other thousand let them do this to them.. Why people let rule others over them when they knew what is happening is against the rule of nature of equal rights.. yes nature has given every one different standard of tasks and abilities, thoughts and understanding but it never meant that any particular individual is above or below some other.. Each work, each thought, each minute has its importance in this world and thus no one can deny any other his right to live with same dignity and comfort with which he is living.. yes when number of people living together increases, its necessary to have some kind of discipline but with a balance.. i have read about time when selfishness was at its verge, i have read about that time too when self-needs and leisure meant nothing for few individuals.. those who exploited others with the reason of practical needs, left emotions completely on sides.. I know, being completely emotional, leads to foolishness but we must remember, being completely practical leads to individualism... both are negative.. the sign positive '+' itself includes in itself two orthogonal ideologies.. only combination of both can complete it.. Yes it is very difficult maintain that balance (you cannot keep everyone satisfied) but yes a majority can be. and that majority must include the most needed one at the first step.. selfishness must be in our mind when we keep ourselves on the places of the people for whom we are deciding (only then can we understand what they expect from us) and being unbiased is what is expected from us while formulating all the understandings.. I guess that could help in maintaining a reasonable balance... 

EMANCIPATION IN TRUE SENSE

Freedom... Emancipation.. Big words.. Big meaning.. Recently read about certain revolutions which happened in past for one or the other kind of freedoms.. It was really shocking to find out that people, the so called intellectual people, never considered women's freedom a big topic to discuss even in their early years...  It was included in their after a big delay.. And i guess the process of its implementation is still going on.. But my question is what do we mean by it.. What is freedom in true sense for us?? and a still bigger question... Has it reached a bigger portion of our society?? Do freedom or women emancipation just means to educate the girls till their graduation and feel relieved of responsibilities.. no doubt in the past years we have seen tremendous changes in the situation of ours in the society.. but is this what we needed?? sometimes it feels like having an unbalanced form of freedom.. they had put us on that kind of swing which keep on or forced to go on one side which demands more dominance over us and we keep on putting our complete strength to bring it back on our side.. Freedom is not just about free movement or to have a job.. In my words, it is about having our own ability to think on any matter liberally, after being unbiased, having our decision making power and choice to implement those decisions without hesitation, be those be the matters of our life or in any other prospective.. I guess there is still a big section in our society which thinks that we are not good decision makers.. but they forget that we have that amount of patience which they cannot even imagine and thus can think on any subject more patiently and come to a more sustainable result than they can.. and a much bigger deal is that we still depends on them to make any decision, be it concerned to our life solely.. I think we must consider each possible option but must do what we feel to and not to make others feel satisfied in the sense that they decided for us.. like others, our good and bad must be in our hands.. Now rest of the problem lies in the percentage of that portion up to which this amount of freedom have reached.. for some it is still a dream that may or may not come true.. People need to open up their minds.. They must stop thinking themselves as our guardians.. we are strong to enough to play that role for ourselves... and not just the others, we must stop thinking of ourselves as dependent on others.. we need to find strength in us..I know that's easy enough to say but not so easy to implement.. But we need to do that.. may be starting from very small but we have to start.. that's how its gonna work..

I was walking smilingly one day
suddenly, there was a mountain by my way..
i saw here, i saw there..
i was trying to find some help somewhere..
then i saw a man climbing it up with care..
he looked down, he saw me standing motionless in heavy air..
he gave a cunning smile..
he looked with dominant eyes..
as if he was trying to say..
hey u lady there, u cant cross it by any possible way..
his stare made me shiver
my self respect was the point where he hurt
i collected my confidence
i recalled my strength
now i was all ready to make my own way without anyone's help..

DEBATE ON INDIAN CULTURE

Culture.. A word that describes a society.. what do we mean by it?? Is it a word which describes how people interacted with others, what they felt about some social issues, how they laid down some rules and principles for its subjects (no matter if those who were getting affected by those were included in formulation or not), or how right or wrong was decided on?? In my words i would like to define it something like this, " Culture: how society changed and flourished, gave way to new ideas and themes, ready to accept the wrong and swap it with right, let it subjects develop their own way of thinking and reasoning".. Today also, one of hot topics debated upon is our culture and traditions.. Many a people use it to defend their own ideas of conservatism and argue to preserve the rich heritage of culture we had.. but do they really do so?? How could few people without knowing and caring to know the idea of culture for others can burden themselves with such a big responsibility? culture is an collective theme, a mutual concept and it must be treated like that only.. Not just for our culture but for any other, the process of preserving rich culture and traditions is work of all, and it must be done like that only with respect given to all those who get affected by it.. Today is a world of internet which had made world a small place to live in.. we can look, observe and analyse a lot more than what was possible in far past.. obviously we get more easily influenced by others way of life, how they feel about any particular issue and how they differ from us.. Our mind must be open enough to see what is happening around.. we must see carefully and analyse accordingly based on our thoughts and concept.. we must accept anything what we see, but we must not reject also.. a big question that comes forward is how one should decide?? what must be done: acceptation or rejection?? Its not a process of a day or two which develops our way of thinking or reasoning ability.. Its a gradual process.. It comes with experiences, ours and others also.. and we must atleast give everyone that chance of experiences.. only then can a society can flourish.. and its subject will, not only preserve the rich heritage of it but also be proud of it.. I am proud of it..

KHWAISHEIN..

We all have our dreams.. our hidden temptation for something.. we may show that we don't care whatever happen to us in our lives but the real thing is that deep in our heart, somewhere, that temptation is so strong that when it arises, every other thing losses its meaning.. Everyone has his own degree of wishlist.. i would like to say it wishlist because that is what we wish from our life, in my words, from a perfect life, but i would not like to relate it with the necessity of getting fulfilled, because life would still be worth living, albeit their fulfillment will add those flavors to it without which life would always miss that perfect taste we tempt for.. Say.. A child on footpath would wish for roof to sleep in cold winter nights.. a poor mother would wish for quantity food for her children for life.. a lower middle-class family would wish for easy going at the end of every month whereas a rich could wish for satisfaction everytime.. an average student can wish for merit in the exams and an old couple could wish, with their children, char-dham.. all had their own needs, and accordingly wishes.. i have read somewhere, " Dreams have those roads which go through hands (efforts)".. some might can.. but some has their roads hidden in our destiny.. we cannot change the course of those roads but we can make efforts to search for those.. life will always add unpredictable elements in our search.. it will play its own kind of treasure hunt with us.. each incident in life will let us learn from it, its up to us how we interpret it.. if we got what it is meant for, we can hope for the way which will lead us to our final destination.. but how can we say or assure ourselves with the interpretation we came out with for any particular situation.. life experiences (of own and others), positive thinking, balanced thoughts, right environment can help us to come out correctly.. but its ultimately our heart, its power to decide on any issue that will ultimately matter and make us do anything or come out with any conclusion.. 

umeedon ke sahi MAAYNE...

They say its never sweet everyday.. I say it must not be.. Life has its own way to give us our own share of experiences.. Sweet or Sour; no matter what type are they but they shape our destiny.. last few days has made me see life with a very different angle.. it let me respect and thank God for everything i have in my life.. May be some days were filled with lots of tragic moments, at times hope disappeared, at times eyes were filled all with tears, at times hopelessness was the only my heart was filled up with but when i looked around, a sense of thrill replaced everything..When a little 10 year girl is seen fighting smilingly with her fate, this time again tears rolled down to the cheeks but this time with a sense of sadness.. when a 60 year old uncle fighting with fused joints and all the way knowing his future destiny seems to live life with the same joy, it make me feel so less of pain and so full of hope.. God has given every one his own share of difficulties and troubles.. what makes it large for someone and small for other, i don't know but it make feel myself lucky enough to have this normal life which is dreams of lacs.. And that let me fill with a sense of responsibility to help atleast one life to balance this special treatment given to me.. may be that day i can balance myself; my heart and my brain.. jo humesha swing ke do taraf rehte hai.. 

kismato pe hume bahrosa sa hai,

par himmato ki jarurat ka ehsaas bhi hai..

parinde apne par saath jarur laate hai,

par uddne ki uchchai apni lagan se paate hai..

apne liye to sabhi khush reh lete hai,

kisi aur ki hassi lauta dena khushnaseeb kar paate hai..

ULJHANN..

Life calls for so many things... some days may let you think why they existed, some may get the tag of "filled with excitement" while some may be awaited... and the life goes on... leaving behind some dreams, some feelings , some un-followed paths, some un-achieved destinations... bus to keep walking is the motto of the life.. but is it worth walking this way?? unattended?? without senses?? We live in the social structure where dreams need to be designed within pre-defined format.. If by any case they break the rules, Rules will break them.. they need to pay for it.. but who ultimately pays?? In my senses trust pays out for it.. confidence pays out for it.. and most of all Happiness pays out for it.. I hate being in this type of structure.. I didnt choose it.. But definitely living with would gonna be my decision for which I guess I'm always going to regret which I dont want to.. surroundings may influence you, it may make u feel all alone, sometime it may attract you but it cannot give u the inner happiness and satisfaction.. may be today everything is against the way I look for them but I believe that will make me come out with shining light and golden color.. Who cares what all think of the way I live it, the only thing that matters for now is that I should stand for it and achieve the things I left behind by mistake... may be I need to walk alone on that way but I know at the end everyone I love will be with me, will be there for me..